i really don’t know how i’m supposed to feel any more. i don’t even mean this in a sad kind of way really, i just honestly have no clue what my feelings are about everything. how am i meant to react to some of the things that are happening ? i think i’ve been through an entire spectrum and i still don’t know whether i meant any of them.

friday afternoon i was happy, friday night i was annoyed and sad, saturday morning i was numb and then elated, saturday afternoon i was down, last night i was emotionless but then suddenly sobbing, this afternoon i’ve been full of anger and apathy. 

perhaps my emotional state is simply confusion.