tried opening up today in person but my mind just went blank. i want to ask so many questions that i’m too scared to most of the time and then suddenly when it’s the perfect moment to do so, i freeze almost entirely.

i’m glad that we did talk though. we have a lot of these conversations via the medium of the internet and it tends to make it feel impersonal and detached. talking face to face and holding you close helped a lot, and when you said that you could see i was struggling, it almost made me feel relieved because it meant that i was allowed to feel that way.

how couldn’t i love you when you treat me so beautifully ?